I am eating so much food. I was starting to make a list of things I have eaten today, but stopped after dinner because I threw in a frozen burrito with chips so now I am embarrassed to admit how much I actually ate. I feel guilty about the non-healthy stuff I consume but I am also good about fruit and vegetables. I have the feeling losing the baby weight this time will be a huge challenge. ;)
The anatomy scan of the baby was on Friday. I am proud of Lily, she was so patient through the long appointment. She even smiled at the sonographer after getting a sticker. Baby looks great, it is definitely a boy, there are no doubts about that! He is an active little one, it took longer than usual to get all the angles they needed. The doctor did notice a small umbilical hernia, which would explain the belly button discomfort I experience from time to time. I was told not to lift anything heavy, and to get as much rest as possible. Rest has been my best friend. Have I mentioned how tired I am?? My allergies have been awful so sneezing has been unavoidable. I have had to hold my belly every time I sneeze, and to make matters more interesting, I pee a little most of the time. Yes, I am not ashamed to admit that. I guess I really need to work on my kegel exercises. Ah, the joys of motherhood.
I have also been crying about eeeveryyything: commercials, documentaries, songs, even when I see a cute baby, I get a lump in my throat. My girlfriend stopped by the other day with four boxes full of baby boy clothes because they aren't planning to have more children, and they are moving. When she had initially told me she had "a few things" to give us, I had no idea she meant her son's entire wardrobe from newborn to 24 months. After she left, I went through it, and I became so overwhelmed with their kindness that I broke down in tears. Everything is cute and in such great condition, she could have just sold it all. It is funny that the day before she sent me her text message I was a bit stressed about having to buy boy clothes and had no idea where to start. I feel pretty lucky.
It is 10:40pm and Lily is still up, "reading" and wandering around her room. For a while, after we moved things back one hour, an early breakfast, an 11am lunch time, etc, she was in bed by 9pm, which was a huge improvement. She was getting up late, we would wait for daddy to come home to have dinner at 6/6:30, bedtime routine started by 8, but wouldn't actually fall asleep after 10pm. At times she still gets up in the middle of the night. Usually, between 2 and 4am--fun times. So when we began doing things earlier, and unfortunately not waiting for Mr. Rhoads to come home to eat, she fell asleep earlier and slept through the night. She has been officially potty trained, meaning she hasn't had an overnight accident in a few weeks. I wish she would nap, mostly for me to take a break, but even if she does (only in the car), it does not improve her nighttime sleep habits. She napped briefly in the car today, I can't help but wonder if that is why she is having a hell of a time falling asleep now. I know she is tired. Truthfully, I have always been a night owl so I can't be upset that she has a hard time sleeping. I know the feeling.
Speak of the devil, I seem to have a visitor in my bedroom so perhaps I will try to lay down next to her. After all, she will not always be this small and will want to be around mommy this much, right?
